Bogart in 2014 |
I opened the windows – the sun is up and the sounds of the
forest are alive with the happy chirping of birds. The resident squirrels are busily
collecting acorns from the large oak tree in front of the deck. They are not
alarmed, the cat is away forever. It’s been a long time since Bogart had been
able to chase squirrels, snapping turtles, or raccoons. Always fearless, he
encountered a few foxes and a coyote in the woods, but came away unscathed.
Bogart’s stoop is still on the deck and so is his favorite stainless
steel water bowl. He enjoyed making huge splashes before he dug his paws in and
licked them of water. Only then did he actually start drinking with gusto.
On a very snowy day a few years ago, Bogart was trying to
dig out his water pan from underneath the frozen whiteness. It is not really a bowl;
it’s an expensive cooking pan with a handle which my mom designated as a deck
water bowl. Bogart seemed to like it; when I tried to replace it with a real bowl,
he refused to drink out of it and the pan came back out.
We are not entirely sure how much he was able to see or hear
in his last months of life. But he liked sitting on his hind legs like a
majestic statue, enjoying the fresh air and the sunshine. In the last few
weeks, he had difficulty assuming his favorite position as his motor skills had
devolved due to arthritic pain and toxins in his body.
He no longer panicked when a draft of wind shut the deck door
– he probably could no longer hear well. He always hated being closed into a
room without the possibility of escape. He destroyed a carpet or two by
scratching and digging his way through to the floor around the door, in a vain
attempt to escape.
Months ago he also stopped being afraid of the vacuum
cleaner and followed Dolores around when she dusted. He had come a long way
from the shy and skittish rescue cat who hid under our daughter’s bed for the
first three years after he was adopted, coming out only at night to play, eat
Cheetos, and drink from the commode.
Despite IV fluids twice a week for almost two years, his
kidneys were on the cusp of failing in June and we increased his dose which
kept him alive until October. In his struggle to stay alive, Bogart taught us
important lessons about a life well-lived, unconditional love, and death. Despite
the weekly fluid infusions, the built-up toxins in his body were affecting his
motor skills and his brain. Kidney failure cost him the loss of almost 40
percent of his body weight.
Christmas 2016
I think he was hanging on to life to please us because he
loved us so much and we adored him. I carried him to the vet even when Dave was
sick and going through chemo and when I was trying to recuperate from knee
surgery this year. He had become so skinny, it was hard to find a patch of fresh
skin that had not been injected with IV fluids and he started to cry. I knew it
was time for him to go. Throughout his illness, he remained the same sweet and
loving fur baby. He had lived a long and pampered life for almost twenty years
and I have been a caring and loving mother to him.
My friend Susan Soden gave me a priceless gift, a beautiful
portrait of Bogart painted by Sonora. He is so life-like, from a time when he
weighed 15 pounds or more. He had shrunk to a mere 8 lbs. Sonora did such a
fantastic job that his beautiful blue eyes seem to follow me from every angle
of the painting.
Our beloved Snowshoe Siamese, who was never fond of snow,
taught us in his almost two decades of life with us to be better, more loving,
more caring, and more patient human beings. A precious loan from God, Bogie has
enriched our lives in every way.
Finding his paw tracks in the carpet behind my chair where
he last slept the day he died, his often favorite and quiet spot, brought me to
tears. He liked to be near me when I wrote. If he did not fit between the
keyboard and my body, he was not shy about putting his paws on the keys,
purring softly.
Ten years ago the vet was surprised when Bogart jumped from
the examining table and got stuck behind a large cabinet and the corner wall. He
had to call the maintenance guy to actually move the entire cabinet before they
could extricate a much heavier Bogart out of a tight squeeze.
On the short ride to the vet, Bogart sat in my lap and was
agitated, trying to look out the window to the right. He did not understand
what was happening, but he knew something was not right and was making guttural
and frightened sounds.
Even though we know euthanizing him was the right and humane
thing to do, putting him out of pain and suffering, the grief is overwhelming,
and I cannot stop crying. He was my fur baby and part of my heart crossed the
Rainbow Bridge with him while part of his is in my heart.
After the first shot the vet administered, Bogart threw up,
I cleaned him up, and, while the anesthesia took over, his eyes remained open
and he was breathing. I showered him with more kisses and the doctor gave him
the second fatal shot. His heart stopped at 6 p.m. on October 3, 2018, while I
was cradling his bony and furry body.
Memory Eternal to our sweet Bogart! He was beautiful even in death.
Sniff, sniff...thanks for joining us into the beautiful story of Bogart, your fur baby! He is whole and healthy now, exploring his new forever world happily! And so until you meet again, may God fill those grieving love pockets with His amazing love!!!๐๐๐
ReplyDeleteI give you my heart. Animal friends are a beautiful part of our life. They never fail to do what God made them to do. A cat will always be a cat without trying to be a fish or a bird. They are a lesson to us in the right order of the world where each of us fulfills our own calling by accepting what God has planned for our own lives.
ReplyDeleteI know how much this sweet Kitty meant to you. He was for sure a very fine cat. To be admired in every way.
So sorry, Ileana. Know this is painful. Hugs. Alice
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